Alright.. this is quite simply a rant entry. I'm not looking for anyone to be sympathetic, and im not looking for anyone to tell me im attention seeking.. I just need to let this out..

Today, once again, I was screwed over at work. I've been underpaid..AGAIN. So I'm gonna find it pretty difficult to buy christmas things for everyone AND keep myself going for the rest of the month..

To be honest, that's just kinda like..the switch that kicked off this..

I try so goddamned hard to be good enough for my parents.. but I never ever am. No matter what I do its never good enough. The best I usually get from them about my art is 'hmph...its okay'

Now I'm going back to SCHOOL to do Higher Art because I dropped out before.. I may be going there every day of the week, then working every night. Except for Friday cos i work all day then ANYWAY, and i work all day saturday aswell...

and still, what do you know... its not quite good enough for my folks..cause I use my spare time to see my friends.
I do their housework, i go to school, i work, i pay them money to LIVE AT HOME.and still.. im little miss fuck up
because im not perfect.
'you didnt wash one of the dishes!' 'ull your shirt down your too chubby' 'are you sure you dont want laser surgery? you look so lovely without your birthmark!' ' hrm.. that pictures okay i suppose, but this this and this are shite' 'your such a little waster'

I've even told them that all i want is their love and support.. but my wonderful father dear replys with 'that wont get you anywhere.'

So yeah...

I just needed to kinda.. get that out i suppose..